Today I got up and walked around my block, I got halfway and headed back so my aim for tomorrow (if I get out) is to get to the next street. I almost didn't go out but i faced the weather and the walk, and im glad I did :) From the 25th-31st my closer family are coming down and they've planned to go to London on Monday (25th) and an overnight trip from Thursday-Sunday (28th-31st) but i don't have a good relationship with any of them because i have a rough past with them, infact I have been saving up money to move out and should hopefully be able to move out by 2028 if I can keep on saving. I feel really pressured to go and they don't understand any of the troubles I went and am going through so im really anxious about going, they've also already booked everyone for the trips aswell so this is something I can't cancel and I think thats making it worse but I'll update you on how that goes once it comes down to it. To battle these feelings I've been sitting with them to try to get a clearer understanding of what those feelings are and then from there I'll figure out what to do next, ive been thinking about booking an online therapy session to see if that could provide any other ways that could help For now I'm going to try to get out more daily to try to prepare again in hopes that it will help sooth he anxiety a little, i hope all your weekends have been good :)
