First of all, this is my 40th win!! And im so incredibly proud of myself for how far ive came and im really grateful for being in this fantastic community and being moderator for it too, thank you Peter for making and growing this home for us all Day 4 jas also been a fat struggle, I only got a few hours of sleep but we also did a lot of walking and travelled all across Denmark going from place to place, competing against other groups in our region. Its been wonderful, the memories created, the pictures we all took, the challenges...the list goes on of all the positive things that went on but I had 2 panic attacks in the last 3 hours (its 10:40pm where i am rn) Because everything is too much, people im sharing a room with are yet again being too loud, someone clogged the toilet (might be too much information but it makes this make sence) and people were gagging, i have emetophobia which is fear of illnesses/being sick and conversations or certain sounds send me straight into a panic attack, the group leaders that were with me blamed it on my sore throat and lack of sleep, they told me to sleep and it would cure it and that made me really mad, they know how much ive struggled and still say stupid stuff like that and it really annoys me, I was too overstimulated and didnt have the energy in general to be able to give them a small lesson about anxiety and agoraphobia etc Im sorry that this one is short, I hoped I had more to say, and I do about all the places we went and the landmarks we travelled to, but like ive said im exhausted and really overwhelmed Yet again, sorry for the small update but I thought that i wanted to keep it honest with you all to share my full experience
