During this part of my my mom's recovery, she is in a lot more pain than before, so i try to help out as much as i possibly can. It is exhausting, and gives me a lot of anxious sensations. Yesterday, we were all going to a concert my grandpa plays in, but she couldn't come due to the pain. I went with my partner and the rest of the family, and got very dizzy and afraid during the first half. I tried to look away from the flashing lights of the orchestra and just enjoyed the music. It went away after about half a hour of struggling. During the evening, i still felt a bit off, but doable. During the day, i went for a long walk with my partner and dog and did some shopping together for him. Again felt weird and lightheaded, but it was actually quite nice! Got him some very nices clothes and he rocked them at the concert! I often realise how much of an impact he has on my stresslevels. He just knows how i feel without me telling him. So im glad i did it all with his support!
