Hello i have Health anxeity and im told my a family member i have Agoraphobia ..(im still wresting with believing what Gps and family tell me ) walking has been a big problem for me for such a long time now over 6 years ..there are the odd moments when i can go for a walk but i cant keep the consistancy and then en dup in a slump for months and when i cant walk ..i actually havnt had a big panic attack for some time but thats because i havnt been walking anywhere for over 4 months i go everywhere in taxies.. at the week end i managed to get to a mega con event in manchester i was deleighted that i went by myself but i suddenly relised that that in itself was copeing stratgergy (i dont want to be with anyone anymore as im more likly to have a problem if im with someone i like or care about as i know i cant afford to have a probelm ..so of course i do ) when im on my own i have control of when and how i move (im aware this in its self isnt good behavour also but im too entrened in that mental and physical cycle. anyway i was delightled as it the first time in 6 year i went to a large social gathering event without someone to motivate me to get there so i was happy with that ...the main win is going to the bank with my sister on monday ..i had to walk in an area im scared off and its slightly up hill. To my body it is a realy steep hard walk but in reality it isnt..when i cant see the destination that im have to walk too i start to get what i can only describe as heart fatigue and i start to feel weak and like im going to have some sort of heart failure ..anyway walking with my sister is actualy the most worse time as she know s i have anxiery and she does try to help me but somehow when she tells me what to do when im going into melt down it seems to make it worse ..but anyway i made it to the bank up the hill.. and made it walking to my dad home via walking through the shopping centre long corridor that goe sfrom on eend to the other ..im still useing physciological crutches like mist sprays and figet spinners..i know thats not good either i cant travel in a taxi without a fidget spinner as im strugggling with travelling. it ssedependant on the syle of driving from the driver and how the car feels but was happy about the weekend at mega con and monday for getting to the bank..it wasnt a long walk for a noraml person but for me it wa sthe longest ive walked outdoors for quite some time. im hoping to build on it . id like to know more about making lists of unavoidable actions to aim at and how to get teh best out of my gp as i feel like im not getting any support from any medical source waether that be medical of theraputic i feel like that they have just abandoned me..but its no surprise realy..the photos and video are of me at manchester megacon on july the 28th and 29th
