This past weekend I visited a preserve that has a really lovely beach. It was hot, I was uncomfortable, but at some point the discomfort didn't bother me anymore. It's been a week since my last day of work (due to the lay off) and I feel like since leaving an unhealthy work environment, I've been hearing myself and my anxiety a lot more clearly. Usually on a day like yesterday I feel like I would've spiraled but I didn't - I actually had a lot of fun. My anxiety used to make me feel like I needed to always be "on", but that's not true. I can feel ease, joy, presence whenever I want and being hypervigilant only exacerbates the anxiousness. Overall I am very proud of myself for doing something out of my comfort zone and being present while doing so. Screw anxiety! ⛱️
