Today I spontaneously ate dinner with my boyfriend at a restaurant he wanted to go to. This sort of spontaneity has been very rare for me recently; I like plans because they make me feel safe, but today I decided to give it a shot and I was surprised by how I was able to 1. Eat in public, 2. Not rely too heavily on my safety behaviors, and 3. Not focus too much on my anxiety. There were moments I felt uncomfortable being perceived by others; my anxiety can make me feel like I'm "weird" and that I am some fraud hiding myself so other's don't see that I am anxious but I actually didn't care much today. I am really proud of myself for letting loose a bit, and enjoying a meal with him. P.S. - The food was mid but that is besides the point.
