Woo! Im back!! My bedroom has been my whole world for as long as I can remember, ive been through so much in this room, if the walls could talk they would tell someone horrific stories and in these past few months I havnt seen much of the world outside of my bedroom walls again, SAD being apart of the reason for that when this time of year rolls around Ive seen the ER again because of my anxiety, breaking my streak of not going for about a year and have been pretty much bedbound trying desperately to make plans to get out of the house and do something Instead I made the impulsive decision to go ahead on a massive plan ive had for years (and has saved up for), to fully empty my room, paint the walls, get new furniture, new carpet, just a fresh start that is much needed. I dont know where the motivation came from, may have been from the fact that I normally overwork myself to the point of burnout to attempt to silence my thoughts and I havnt done that in a while. But today after 3 tip runs, I completely emptied my room, from almost half way up my leg rubbish and clothes from the floor and up for months, to nothing at all. The floor is visible!! Plans for tomorrow is to take up the carpet and underlay then take old clothes ive never worn but dont fit me to charities then paint my bed frame since im keeping that one temporarily until we find a new one I like and then buy all the paint for the walls, ceiling, doors and skirting. I'm going out shopping now to get colour swatches for paint and im pretty sure I know what colours im going for anyways. Honestly, what has kept me going throughout these past few months have been reading all of the wins, you guys are unstoppable! Seriously well done, im so proud of all of you!! I hope you're all doing good :)
