I didnt end up going to school yesterday either because i was really anxious and i didnt have the motivation to get out of bed or get dressed. I spent that whole day overthinking how hard it is to go back on monday and i felt really guilty for not going in. I had a few panic attacks over that but thats nothing unusual to me at this moment in time. It feels self destructive knowing i need to go but my mind and body feels so against me if that makes sense I woke up today at 1pm, getting about 4 hours of sleep, and i watched the replay of one of the workshops that went on today from Joe (Freedom From Panic) and it actually gave me the courage to get up and i went to the closest shop to me for food (about 5 minute walk away from me) and it was really uncomfortable to do so but i got through it, came home and ate about half of what i ordered (which was pretty good for me considering i have problems with eating and havent eaten as well as i should for the past week) My body does feel completely exhausted but im glad i did it, and i honestly dont think i wouldve went out today if i didnt watch the video
