For the past 5 days I've went through emotional numbness but today that barrier was broke, I finally got in touch with my auntie (we havnt talked for a month or so because of my anxiety pushing everyone away) i still had the shortness of breath, the chest pains and dizziness on the way there and I have went round her house, hopefully to sleep over because im trying to do an exposure at the minute (furthest I've been away from home in a long time) they have 3 litters of kittens at the minute and I immediately attached to a little grey kitten with such a loving and sweet personality, ths first time I've smiled and felt a proper sence of joy within those past 5 days. My auntie then decided that I could keep him because she said the last time she saw me that happen was with my last cat Bertie (recently passed.) I can't wait to give this little boy a happy life and I hope he can help to encourage me to get into a routine again. I have decided to name him Monty and ive added a video of him too :D
