During Aug and Sep, I have weekly half- or full-day in-person meetings that I'm mostly leading where the large groups I'm presenting to and working with are upset about changes happening so there's often some conflict at these meetings. These used to never be an issue for me, but with this latest wave of agoraphobia, I experience anxiety leading up to them (sometimes substantial) and a fear of panic during them. I have completed three so far and I feel good about that. In two, I had the start of panic and I'd say I was like 50/50 with accepting it, but also wanting it to go away because I was in charge and needing to present and talk for hours on end. There is anxiety because it's every week, but on the other hand it's also a good opportunity for me to face and challenge the panic and anxiety regularly. Either way, three down, five to go!
