i went up the street again today this afternoon ..this time though i had a momentary 3 second surge that i felt was going to develop into siometing for more lasting but luckily it did not..i got nearly to the top of the street but i wasnt feeling well today as i had 4 alcoholic drinks the day before and i didnt take my anti anxiety medication because of this ..and it was realy cold and i didnt feel well in the cold today..but even though that sound like a negative experience it actulay was good because i beleieve it induced a panic attack for 3 seconds and i felt it start and i thourght " oh no its happen ing an dim further away from my property than i was when i had my big one on the street before christmas and yet i was able to keep walking back and cross over the road to the rid eside of the street ..if the surge had continued i diont know if i would have been abkle to keep going but it settled as quickly as it arrived...its so fast at arriving when it occurs..but i was able to get back to the gate..so i needed to have an attack and to still walk with it and i was able to do that although it was a panicked walk..i realy needd to stand still i think but maybe walking with it was a better test ..im not sure which is harder to achieve if i had stopped i might have got stuck...but it was a very small win
