Today has been another day of travelling, we went to do the rides in legoland and I didnt go on most of them since themepark really freaks me out, I did go to the aquarium but I found it really closed up and felt very trapped so I didnt stay there since I started getting a heavy chest and couldn't breathe, ive lost my voice and im really worried about it, also menaing I haven't been able to talk to anyone all day and when ive tried it comes out cracked and people haven't understood me, meaning ive had to repeat myself and make my throat hurt worse, I went back to golgling again because thats still quite an automatic response for me unfortunately and sent me into multiple panic attacks. This was all before, during and after a 30minute bus ride which was unplanned and very rushed, a 2 hour train ride which was hot and decently packed with people and the walk to the hostel hurt from carrying luggage The hotel is nice but we're really hot when we came in and sent me into another panic attack, I got the attention of one of the leaders before it got too back though and we sorted it out. Yet again experiences have been fun but the people im sharing a room with are not heading to sleep and im already massively terrified of sleeping due to nocturnal panic attacks, wish me luck for tomorrow because I swear im gonna need it, and thank you for all the support from everyone, its been lovely to read all the comments and your wins too! You are all awesome, im so proud of you all!! (All of the things there look like (and most are) made of lego and its sick!!)
