It's been too long 😶🌫️ but I wanted to catch up to say that last night I woke up to a racing heart. This particular episode of adrenaline isn't new - I've been navigating on and off episodes for a year now. I was deeply uncomfortable but I made it through, and I think it's from all the conditioning I've done to build a relationship with myself and my anxiety. Although I strongly don't like these episodes, I've been trying to lean into curiosity instead of fear. A while ago my therapist was telling me to approach my experiences as a researcher instead of a critic; I can be curious about my panic attacks rather then criticize them. But overall, I will say I've been doing very well. I'm going to grocery stores alone, I drove at night yesterday for the first time alone, I attended an art workshop at a museum with my partner, and I've sat through some panicked moments. These moments remind me that I CAN do it, and you can too ❤️ Excited to be posting more wins soon 🥳 Also a photo of some plants from my walk today!
