Phew. Super overwhelmed and scared, but just finished my first day back at work since the new year. Had extremely strong dpdr, anxiety, distressing thoughts that the sky was going to fall/sun would drop/im dying/going to pass out etc, but with the help of cbt, self talk, and two clonazepam i somehow made it through a 7 hour shift. Came very close to a full on panic attack at lunch and had the urge to run home or call 911, but texted my support friend and it actually PASSED! Im exhausted, so scared that i cant keep this job because of an inevitable panic attack, but i know this is my ocd and self sabotage coming through. Im pushing as hard as i can.
