I have this far aunt, who lives in Spain. She is the only one of my dad's side of the family i still hear, coz all the rest broke contact after i went to live with my mom permamently. She invited me and my partner over in Spain last month, and we have been there for a week. Since she arrived back here, where it is a lot less hot during summer, she invited us over for lunch. (Mind that Spain was the first time i saw her in 12 years, and this was the very first time here since those 12 years!) We drove an hour to see her, and upon arrival, i felt anxious. I cried, shaking, nauseous, all the good stuff. But i got out of the car. I took some deep breaths, even tho they were stinging a bit. I went upstairs and we had a nice lunch with the 3 of us! Had some flare-ups of nausea, dizziness and sweating while there, but i stayed, talked, and enjoyed it! On the way home, everything came out. All the stress, but i still did it! I didnt give in to the fear.
