I don't know if we are doing trigger warnings on here but just in case., this one is about pet loss This feels like the worst win. My cat is/was very elderly. 18 years old. She has been in poor health for over a year, but just last week it started getting worse. I took her to the vet, but despite all the medication we gave her she wasn't getting better. Plus she had really bad arthritis that no pain medicine was helping and she had hyperthyroidism and was down to just below six pounds. This morning I had her put to sleep. I didn't want to, I was so scared. My heart was racing, I was sweating, I had an attack last night just thinking about it. All I wanted to do was pick her up and run out the vets office. I actually almost did. But I didn't. Everyone says I did the right thing, she was in a lot of pain. I'm still feeling very uncomfortable, like my skin is crawling, but I did it, I hope she is at peace now
