I have went on (what felt like) a long walk, it was about 20 minutes and I got soaked from the rain, which was fine because I had a jacket with me and didnt get too cold. since its been really hot where I am at the minute it was quite nice. Right after it stopped raining it got really humid and I felt like I couldn't breathe, the air felt thick and all of my symptoms boosted suddenly, heart started to race and ectopics got worse, chest became tight, and I did have a panic attack but I got through it , im safe and im ok. I am also proud of myself for getting through that since those hot, humid weather's always really trigger me and I would never choose to go out in those conditions :) I am starting to pack everything for my (ament to be) 9 day trip to Denmark in a week and 2 days, I am really anxious about it and even thinking about it freaks me out but like I've said before I really dont want to cancel because this means a lot to the group im going with. My first goal is to get on the flight, my second goal is to make it one day and then hopefully I can manage the other days, I know I'll have panic attacks out here but I feel like I can push through this. Its a huge step considering everything I've went through and trying to crawl my way out of that living hell so I think its ok that im massively anxious about it I hope you all have a good day xx
