A few weeks ago I finished decorating my room, and all we now need is new furniture! This room has some really bad memories in it but redecorating it has made it that little bit easier to manage being in the room without any major flashbacks and that has been pretty good. I would post before and after photos but I actually didn't take any of the before mainly because I was quite ashamed to have been rotting in that room for months and didn't want to be reminded of it when I looked back, but ill post pictures of after :) My other wins have been things like going to school for the whole day and this week I've even completed 2 whole days without skipping any sessions, I have assessments coming up starting tomorrow and ive been really anxious about them and ive been exploring ideas for other academic steps after completing this one. Ive always struggled in these environments since I can remeber but it got really bad to the point where I wouldn't go into most lessons and sometimes would barely make it into school but im doing alright now. Ive got an art examination tomorrow where im doing art for 5 hours, which should hopefully go well since I like art but im still anxious about it Counselling has went alright because my cpuncellor is really nice but it isnt helping me at all so im thinking of cancelling, unfortunately this has always been something that ive struggled to gain help from because I'm too self aware and my emotional intelligence is really high, plus I've been studying the human mind and psychology for fun since secondary I hope youre all doing fantastic! Xx
