I'm so proud of myself! I have been dealing with a lot this month and week, and my stress jug has been overfilled with many things in life that have made me re-sensitised to my anxiety. I haven't had anxiety this strong in years, and the physical part of it has been rough to push through, when normally pushing through them is a piece of cake. Tonight I had a gig that I had tickets to and honestly didn't want to go anymore because of how tired I've been lately and didn't want to deal with my anxiety symptoms when tired (even though I know I would have still had fun). I was going alone so it would have been so easy to just back out of it and decide not to go. I went, and probably because of the anticipation, I had a lot of physical symptoms during the show (dizziness, lightheadedness, dissociation), but I stayed for the whole thing and had a lot of fun and glad I went. It wasn't easy but I stuck through it and I'm so proud. Now in bed with a warm cup of tea and my book :)
